Saudade

When did you leave me behind? 

What did I do to deserve this love?

What happened to the future we said we had? 

I’ve been folding in on deja vu like it’s origami 

Trying to rewind the look in your eyes when you first saw me

I’ve been breathless

Caught up in all these faithless methods 

I’ve been on the brink of dawn for some time now 

But the sun stays sitting on the horizon line

It waits like a grandmother on the front porch 

The call of death not a far cry from its first steps 

I kissed the fire and extinguished the flame 

Rewinded, zoomed in, adjusted the frame 

But the picture’s still the same

Torn up shreds of an old life

Squeaky floorboards from memories before 

Laughter sifting through the door 

I drifted to sleep once

Laying in your arms 

Feet by the fireplace 

Dreams lain to waste 

I woke up and it never turned to tomorrow 

You slept still in that scarf you’d always borrow 

And the midnight bird never sang 

The church bells never rang 

The burns never came from our flame 

Water wore its way under the bridge 

And we were still standing on that hill 

I suppose there’s always time to kill 

They’re big shoes to fill  

And I haven’t the time to find out 

What’s on the other side?