Relapse

I fear I’ve killed everything good inside 

Subsided to the addiction 

Let it fester while I wither

Could I ever be the same again? 

I see the real me in fragments and pieces

Reflected for a moment in the candy colored sky 

But swept away again thereafter

Relapse and total brain collapse 

Maybe it's why I’m always running in my nightmares 

I shouldn’t see my captor in the dreamscape 

But there he is 

Following me in the dark 

In the places not meant for him 

Real life starts to blur 

Until I’m on my knees 

Begging him to save me 

From the monster he is 

I run with nowhere to go 

Because he’s in my head, he’s in my bed 

He’s everywhere I go 

He knows me like I know me 

When I look into his face, I see my own 

When I’m without him, I’m only half of me 

My shadow, my stalker, my addiction 

My world tucked away 

In one small machine